As I sit here to try and write this letter my eyes well up with tears and I get overcome by a rush of emotions. I don’t know where to start. It is the feeling of unconditional love you have shown towards my family that gets me choked up.
I spent twelve days of driving across America to try and find a place for Miranda to stay. I looked into maternity homes in Montana, Utah, Colorado, California, Oregon, and two homes in Texas. I ran out of options and money and had to head back to Idaho. I was in a hotel in Corsicana Texas when I clicked on the email link to contact “firstname.lastname@example.org” I didn’t call because it was late and I didn’t feel like being rejected again. I was only an hour and a half away from Glen Rose. I chose to head straight home instead of heading to Glen Rose. I couldn’t afford any more hotels.
When we got back to Idaho, Miranda and I stayed with her Grandparents for a couple of days until I found a Group Shelter home for Miranda to stay. This ordeal was tearing the family apart. We all had some tough lessons about secrecy, resentment, shame, faith, and courage. I had to make some tough decisions. I did what I could to the best of my ability to try and keep my family together. What I couldn’t do, God did for me.
I was at my wits end when you called me that day. It had been 10 days since my trip to Texas and the Group Shelter only allowed for Voluntary placements to stay for 14 days. The place in Montana said they would accept Miranda and had a scholarship to cover the tuition. Before I could finalize travel arrangements to Montana, they sent an email apologizing and said I needed to come up with $1,250 a month. There was no way. I don’t have that kind of money. I sat in my office with the door closed with my head in my hands confessing to God that I can’t take it any longer. I confessed my exhaustion and frustration to the Lord. I read and re-read the 2 Cor. 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” I never really understood that passage. Then you called.
I remember the first thing I said to you was “Do you realize you just answered a prayer” and you responded very calmly that you get that all the time. I now have a deeper understanding of that passage I mentioned above. God’s power was made perfect when you called me at my weakest.
I wish I was good at telling stories so you can get a sense of the magnificent story of Miranda and her journey from darkness to light. The Ode family story is now one of courage, obedience, faith, joy, and happiness. I thank God for Hannah House, and I pray for your ministry. I have my daughter back and she has her future. I have a grandchild in the care of a wonderful family. It is yet another amazing weave of intricate tapestry God has woven that has brought us all together.
…There is no higher or greater work we can do on earth than nurturing people with the Word. Oh, how the devil hates such a good work! That is why he attacks it so viciously through sects, tyranny, violence, and persecution. That is also the reason it is such an inherently difficult thing, why it takes so much time and energy to help young people mature a bit, to accept scriptural principles, and to live in fear and reverence of God. In short, there is no other task so difficult, as to train people to live piously, nor is there greater service we can render to God. (Martin Luther, House Postil, Sermon for the 7th Sunday after Trinity, ¶12)
“They who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31